It’s that time again! The Nerd Factory is joining up with Kate Motaung and the Five Minute Friday community to add my take on the weekly writing prompt.
This week’s word is “depend”.
5 minutes on the clock – and GO.
I had a hard time with this word when we got married. To depend on my husband also meant that he could let me down – and even worse was the possibility I might come to actually trust him and come to let that dependence be my normal way of life.
It turned out to be rather crippling for our marriage. I held back. I depended on him for the things I knew I couldn’t do, but I wouldn’t depend on him for the other things I knew I was capable to provide. It created a dangerous habit and it was also shouting to my dear husband that I did not truly love him.
I realized this only when I saw the hurt look in his eyes after my typical reaction to handle things on my own. His hurt then hurt my heart.
It’s an unfortunate thing that we usually don’t change our choices until we see the hurt in the face of the one we love. Though, I am thankful to tell you I’ve learned how to depend on him – and enjoy it. It’s such a gift.
Now comes the hard part. Hitting send sans any edits!